I got so depressed that I wished I wouldn't exist, I wish I could just press pause before continuing the process again, best if I could press forward and get over with this process.
However, I steped back and realised, it's actually the process that is valuable, tha experiences and learnings gained throughout the years.
On the other hand, I really couldn't attend to too many things at a time and I seriously worn out. I don't have spare time for any commitments and my whole damn mind is all about school, assignments and revisions.
You know, I would have gone crazy if I still continue hanging there, and I'm really on the verge of getting crazy. Don't push me too hard cause I may just snap and give up. I really would cause I'm already too tired for anything, everything.
For now, it's back to isolating to myself cause I have fucking no life. My eye lids are so heavy now that they ain't helping at all. I have like 4 chapters of quiz to study, PLENTY of assignments due next week.
ITS ONLY WEEK 3, fucking school.
with massive sighs
